Thursday, March 13, 2008

A funk.

I'm in one. I've been in one all week. I've tried really hard to fake that I'm okay and I think I've been mostly successful (meaning, I haven't started bawling in front of anyone.)

It started with a challenging Sunday -- a challenge that has left me feeling like I'm a jerk and a failure and like I'm disappointing people. Of course, there's the whole "I miss my dog" element to add to the funk and then it snowballs and my mind starts focusing on all of my faults and everything that's wrong with my life. By this time, I'm firmly entrenched in the funk with no way out that I can see.

However, the little black rain cloud finally lifted when I went to the temple tonight (that's a really good place to go when you're feeling sad.) I know Heavenly Father loves me and I know he doesn't want me to be sad. I'm going to continue to try and shake the sadness off and focus on the good.

I'm already on my way.

2 comments:

Jazzy said...

I hope so because amazing people like you don't deserve to be in funks. Just so you know, I think you're wonderful and beautiful and my life is better because you're in it :)

Sheryl said...

You say "funk" so I think of George Clinton, the Grandfather of Funk. You looked very happy at the temple. I don't think George Clinton would be there.