There are three things I don't want to blog about but I'm going to anyway to keep this from being a Bachelorette-only blog and they are:
1. My callings. I'm super busy with my church callings. Like, every day there's something to do kind of busy. Like, I can't think about anything else kind of busy. I guess that's what happens when you are a callings hog and have three of them at once. If I'm not working on camp stuff, I'm going to marathon length Youth Conference meetings (you need me to create thank you's for 55 people by Thursday? No problem!) or I'm trying to think of creative ways to sing, review and repeat the same song every Sunday in Primary until those darling children are singing it in their sleep. It will get better...it will get better...it will get better.
2. My job. I love my new job and feel great about the change I made back in March. However, not everything has been perfect. At the risk of blogging something I will eventually feel guilty about and delete, I will just say that we don't always work with people we would normally choose to spend hours each day with. Sometimes we get snapped at or ignored and not because we have done anything to deserve it. I did my best to tune it out, block it out, ignore it – but it still always stung a bit. Why should I care that a person I barely know is mean to me? Well, I haven’t yet figured out how to not care if people don’t like me. I’m hoping that comes with 50 since it sure didn’t happen when I turned 40, dang it. The great thing is I work for a large company and that means that people move to new jobs in different buildings far, far away and everyone is happier because of it. Especially me.
3. My dad. I loved him. We had a far from ideal relationship. He wasn't the perfect dad and I certainly wasn't the perfect daughter but I'm thinking about him today and wishing things had been different and better.
3 comments:
You are BUSY! But that's just a season, hopefully. haha You're just too talented! Thanks for sharing your gifts. Glad things are good at work. I know your Dad loved you so much too...how could he not!
I don't know HOW you do all those church callings. Talk about MAJOR STRESS!!!
It's been a while since I worked, but I remember the politics and hating it sometimes. Not all the time, but definitely sometimes. I had one woman who just continued to bully me even though we had different bosses and worked in entirely different departments. She was just MEAN and used to make my life a living hell and I totally didn't deserve it. Hang in there and stick to your guns and stick up for yourself. Do you need me to come down there and kick some butt? Cuz I will.
Your dad loves you too, Jeanelle. Just because things weren't perfect between the two of you doesn't mean you don't have that divine right to mourn his death and wish for better. I'm sure he's watching over you more than you know.
I am sorry for your loss and pain. I turned in names to replace the irreplacable you that same week. These things take time. You are good at everything you do!
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