The real me!

Some of my favorite bloggers (Holly, Jessica, Lindsey, Stie and many more) recently did a "real" post and I decided to get brave and do the same thing.

I like smiling most of the time. I like giving off the impression that all is well in my world. I wear makeup every day. My hair is "done" every day. I try to dress nice most of the time. On my blog, I generally talk about the stuff running through my head, the stuff I love, the TV shows I'm obsessed with but truth be told, I don't spend a lot of time writing about the bad stuff. For example, I'm not going to write that I spent most of tonight crying about feeling alone because what good will it do? So yeah, my blog is a glossier version of me. Thanks for asking!

To give you some idea of who I really am, deep down, this is who I strive to be.

Ah, Mary. Practically perfect in every way, aren't you? How would it be to be you??

I will never know because this is who I really am:

Here I am with a freshly washed face, a gigantic smile to hide the double chin and still wearing this year's Christmas pajamas. If you look closely you can see the Bag Balm I have to put on the dry patches around my eyes (the ones I get every winter without fail and no beauty product will repair. Help...anyone?) Oh and please note the full drying rack behind me that is now holding completely dry clothes that should have been put away 3 days ago. Nice, huh?

And because I'm really keeping it real, I wanted to show you my "it hasn't even been three stinking months since my last color/foil" roots. Horrible, no? The flash does accentuate the gray a bit but that is one scary head of hair, folks.

Besides the hair and skin issues, I have some habits/traits that I'm not the least bit proud of and generally do not make the blog. They include:

1. I am habitually late. I frequently don't get to church until the 2nd verse of the Sacrament song. I'm nearly always late to work which means I work through my lunch or late most nights. I'm always in a hurry, always trying to accomplish too much in too little time, always wanting to sleep just a few minutes longer.

2. I'm a paper piler. It's bad, people.

3. I'm a sore loser when playing games. I have tried to improve in this area but I still have a long way to go. I've gotten better at just enjoying whatever game we're playing but sometimes (when I lose over and over mainly) I feel whiny and pouty about losing. What am I? Three???

4. I'm horribly impatient and sometimes snappish. It breaks my heart when I'm short with people I love (not so with people who don't mean as much to me but that's still not a good thing.) I know as soon as the snippy comment comes out of my mouth and hangs there in the air that I've been a jerk and I'm dying to grab it back before it hurts anyone. Ugh.

5. I'm vain. I hate it when I wear something new to work and nobody notices or comments and I think I love too much being told I'm pretty or that I look younger than I really am.

That's enough, right? I don't think I hide THAT much of myself on the blog but for various reasons, I generally don't go that deeply into who I really am. But every so often, when I'm not talking about reality TV, I will open up my heart and share the real Jeanelle. And when I do, I'm happy (like here and here.)